Testing Waters

I guess I’m a blogger now. Someone go tell my 14 year old self. She’d flip! I read so many blogs back In the day fantasizing about one day having words and experiences to share. I have experiences and creating more. Here are some words.

 Writing has always helped me process this racing mind. I can thank my 7th grade teacher for that. I fell deeper in love with poetry and writing because of her. It allowed me to navigate so much. I think I’ve survived this mind because of it.
So here I am, I figured if I’m going to do things that terrify me I should probably have an outlet and writing into the void or cloud hopefully will help ease the fear. 

In two and a half weeks I’ll be leaving for Guanajuato, Mexico to complete a silversmith art residency. Anxious is just one of the large emotions I’m feeling over this. I keep saying “whose idea was this?” It was my idea. Why? When I started Sanará Mañana I felt a deep knowing that just starting this business was going to be the catalyst to my transformation. I didn’t know what the hell I was doing but I saw the vision and I know I learn so well by doing. So I went hard for it.
With this decision to go to Guanajuato. I’m facing the fears of being alone, of meeting people, of not being enough, and lastly of the dark. Ew. I said it. The dark has been hard for me since I was a kid. I’m not looking forward to this one. I DO know I’m protected and blessed and have nods from the universe to move forward. I’m choosing to believe that. 

I will also be visiting León. My mami’s hometown. I’ve never been and it’s been a huge dream of mine to go while we’re in the same lifetime. I’m nervous to meet my family on my maternal side but also excited to see my mom’s roots with her. My roots. 

One of the things Guanajuato is known for, is it’s silver mining history. What better way to get to know a material that has called to me than from a land and people that have known and respect it deeply. 
I’m eager to learn and fall deeper in love with this art form and probably other art forms. I’m curious to meet myself after this trip. 
I’ll be writing here during this trip and a bit before. Sharing pictures, thoughts, feels, experiences, etc. In the future I’ll share deeper into each collection here. Plans for diving deeper into skills and ones I’ve always wished to have. We will see where this goes. Forgive my grammar I’ll do better at editing. I was just excited to create the space. 

Thank you for holding my words. Thank you for those of you who have consistently supported me. I see you and I appreciate you de todo corazón. 

- Judith